TiMe ThRoUgH aN HoUrGlaSs

Monday, September 06, 2004

last nite got css 40th anniversary gala dinner. reach home at 1220am this morning... then did a few changes to script... ate a little supper... already 2.30 liaoz... went to sleep... woke up at 7.30 am... continued to edit script wif blury eyes... then later packed bag and went out at 9... was floating... reached canteen... at 930... realli bad mood.. then jacob pissed me off with his mouth... point my "reading btw the lines" finger... imagine wd he said which irritate so much to point tt finger which i had not point for like 3-4 mths... niwae... realli dun quite know the purpose of the meeting... they say wan decide the locations of the sets of the scenes... and the props... and the camera angles... but firstly... locations and props ish so easy lor... me completed within 10 - 20 mins... and i mean ME... fine fine... got 1 or 2 gave suggestions... but the rest were talking about pokemon!!! fed up... but to floaty~ to scold... then later still got camera angles... that one can onli decide when we see the sets rite?
then ended round 11 plus... went to eat lunch... then went lib. slacked and play hamsterball... then saw a blog with a big pair of eyes... scary... tt pair of eyes dun look like tt person's.. well... nvm... camera's are like tt... i sorta hate taking photos also... coz it will show my BIG back eye circle... and is SHO OBVIOUS de... haiz.... nvm
so later went for maths lesson at 1pm.. first hour... honestly... i was dozing off... i was sitting there with my eyes shutting and opening... shutting and opening... and m head keep either knock sideways...or infront... haiz... till after one hour when ms chua gave 5 mins break... quickly rushed to toilets to wash face... then kept eating sweets.. eat till end of whole lesson got slight cough:P hmm.... today finalli can understand wd ms chua is saying... as in coz i'm awake... think its better for me to change place... oh yar.. i changed place after the first hour... then had small chat with my temporary changed partner which kept me awake... :D
Later wanted to go home sleep one... but on the way sitting 187 with zhao perng wei kang they all... decided to go with them to somewhere near zhao perng's hse to play basketball ... long time never play liaoz... act. last time got a period of time i like got hang of playing bb ball... as in can at least score 4-5goals in 10 shoots... but then long time never play... and i mean long time as in round more than half a year... so became beginner again... not bad lah... juz nw play tt time brought back a lot of memories... especialli the time i hanged around wif sherwin wei ji they all last year... occasionalli or during holidays... we will go like somewhere to play and destress... but now... sometime recess too tired to go down canteen... and i mean physically tired... then thus sometimes like up to a week or so never see them... then sometimes they ask me to go out play... either i no money... or got cca no time.. or got too much hw no time... or just again... tired... like just now on bus 99 back home... took same bus with wei kang... then coz long time nv tok wif him liaoz... also can't find topic to tok... coz he is sitting at the other end of the class with mark bk they all... seldom can tok... so throughout the journey i was feeling so guilty... me like bery dao like that... realli sorry... =p I realli miss those days we were playing happily together... think i should spend a little more time wif them.... dun wanna lose this bunch of gd friends =D
suddenli quite miss 2/6.. happy times... sad times... but very very little stressed times compared to now... i realli miss my cls... sometime see the ex clsmates from 3/2.. not dun wan to greet them or say hello... but coz again long time nv tok... quite felt like strangers... realli sorry again...
hmm... niwae... walking back tt time... was wondering/thinking of things again... oh yar... did i mention before... i'm a deep thinker... like for example... when walking on a street alone or sitting alone... i will start to enter my deep thoughts... like just now walking home after alighting bus 99 ... then was thinking about wd i mentioned above lar... then sometimes i can think of a supposed to be happy thing... and turn it to be a bad decision made...
take for example... *never disclosed before* the reason why i left church... i wasn't thinking about it at all back then... till one day i was going back home from somewhere... then was thinking about the church... like wd ministry should i join... and like the church design all this crap lar... then later think about my cg members... think how they treat me and others... then think think think... suddenli think of what are the reasons i should stay there... then i think of if i should leave... y... then suddenli thought that one of the reasons tt my results dropped is bcoz i go to much church liaoz... then think think think somemore... then started to compare a lot of pros and cons of whether i should stay in church... and the final decision made was to leave...
haiz... see... thinking can be gd...as in u reflects on ur life and like wd u did on tt day... blah blah blah... but then again... for deep thinkers like me... thinking too deeply is sorta bad... so next time muz kp me accompany... and wake me from my deep thoughts... before i ponder upon something bad again...

niwae... eoy exams coming... i noe... 5 more weeks... muz start clearing all my hw liaoz.... so tt i can manage my revision and do my hw at the same time... or else all the hw clog up... then haven start revision... think i will break down again... so maeb thursday... friday might stay in sch again... then sch reopen everyday will stay bah... unless headache or need some destress:P haiyr...!! HATE IT when they make us take back tbs back home so early... then if like i wan to studi a particular subj tt nite in sch... i still have to bring so mani other tbs which are required for lessons in the day... then everyday i wan come and go from sch with a pile of tbs... and after exams i think i will become old man liaoz... haiz... HATE IT!!! actualli all this can tell the councillors then thay can respond to it by suggesting it to mrs terrance of allowing to put a few tbs in sch... those no need to study one... like eng tys...-_-'' but then again... councillors are getting uneffective as student leaders who speaks up for the welfare of students... haiz... tsk tsk tsk... dunnoe wd they for:P

niwae... muz jia you for eoy! muz plan study plan liaoz... muz stop playing so much games liaoz... muz study hard liaoz... but then again.... i everytime also lack pple pushing me and like gif a BIT stress to study... coz me is still a student who need a BIT of stress in order to be spurred to study... =D so anyone who wan to be my motivator can leave ur name in the tag board and i shall bug u to bug me to study... oh yar....

**anyone interested to stay wif me till nite in sch during weekdays to study can leave your names in the tag board... i will respond to u asap... but think the nite study ish for onli sec 3s and 4s hor...? dunnoe.. well again... pple interested just leave ur names in my tag board. thx! **

PIGGY JIA YOU!!! PIGLET JIA YOU!!! LETS TOP THE CLASS TOGETHER!!! *then can suan s*r*h liaoz :P

- alone~
by Dj Z @ 10:49 PM